
5.24.2007
5.21.2007
neveshteyee ke gharar ast edame yabad
sa@ 22, inja Tehran ast. Aslan chera bayad har shab sedaye mara beshnavid
Dar otagham deraz keshide am, hanuz sare shab ast ama dar meghyase khastegy man sa@ az nime shab ham gozashte ast. Headphone Creative dar etesal ba Ipod Apple khaharam mosighi ebri ro baraye goosh hayam paksh mikonad. Ama be nazar miresad goosh ha bedune hich tavajohi be mosighi be sokot setare haye pohste panjere goosh mikonand. Hamin ke az miane dood va gard va ghobare Tehran nooreshan ra be man miresanand dalil kafi ast ke begooyeem in setare ha motmaenan por noor tarin setare haye asemanand. Tanha tashaboh miane setare ha va lahzate sokot va deraz keshidan, tamayol be samte bi nayahat ast. Be nazaram Lahezat ta bi nahayat kesh mi ayand ta hameye note haye mosighi sokot forsat ejra shodan peyda konand. Setare ha nagahan be back ground miravand ta negaham bargardad be otagh 6X4 am. Kenare divar yek shovalie kez karde ast. Separ o shamshirash am mese khodash be divar takie dade and. Dast be chane be man khire shode ast . Negahe belataklifesh az rooye soorate man rad mishavad va be samte panjere miravad. Shayad borje milad shayadam setare ha. To otagh donbale fabiana migardam. Chand roozi hast ke rafte ast. Az an shab ke koli tamarkoz kardam ke biavaramash to takhte khab digar nadidamash. Ye chand ta ghatre ashk ta vasataye sooratam miayand. hamanja mimanand. Fek konam chesh hayam nesbat be esme fabiana sharti shode and. fek mikonand har vaght in esm ra beshnavand bayad gerye konand.
Shovalie ahi mikeshad. shayad mikhahad tavajohe man ra az fabiana be samte khodash jalb konad. Khobe baz hanuz kasi inja hast. Khoobe ke man jaye shovalie nistam, kheily bade ke adam bad az omri khedmat, jang va nabard, pahlevani va daliri tabdil be yeki az moblemane serfan taziyeeni va bi amalkarde khane beshavad. Ipod dar eteraz be barkhord tohin amize man nesbat be mosighi melate yahood ba payan dadan be sharje batriash khamush mishavad. Hala ke mosighi ebri ghat mishavad taze ehase alaghe shadidi nesbat be an dar vojodam shole var migardad. Doa mikonam ipod mo’jeze konad va hata baraye lahzeyeee yeki digar az kalamate ebri ra ke hata bad az shenidan dahha bare nemitavanam talafoz konam ra barayam labe laye mosighi melate yahood paksh konad. Goosh dadan be mosighi be zabani ke hata yek kalame az an ra nemidanid az an jahat lezat bakhshast ke mitavanid an ra harjoor ke doos darid tarjome va tafsir konid. Yadam ast in jaryan daghighan 10 sal pish zamani ke baraye avalin bar chris de burgh shenidam etefagh oftad. Chizi az English nemidanestam va to kalame in khanande irlandie arjantini tabar donbale esme haye khasi migashtam va be tanavob ham miaftam
Ipod ke ahle mo’jeze kardan nist la’aghal fabiana mi amad va az anche emrooz dar Tehran barayash gozashte bood tariff mikard va zamin asemane Tehran ra be adate rooz haye gozashte morede naghd va baresi gharar midad. faghat ipod va fabiana nistand ke dast be yeki karde and ke hale man ra begirand. Alan yadam oftad Har do khate Telephoneman ham 2 roozi hast ke ghat shode and. Inra dar bazgasht az safar be dasht-e kavir va roostayee ke shayad be monasebate mabahese siasi akhir kamelan tasadofi esmash MESR bood fahmidam. Be har hal Mokhaberat bar tabl e “dashtan boogh!” mikobad va soraydar bar salamate sim keshi dakheli. In vasat man mandam va rooyaye shirine shenidane sedaye khesh keshe modem dar lahze gozar miane sokon va harekate dade haye 0 va 1. in yadavari kafi ast ta falsafeye type kardane in loghat ke az dide narm afzare Microsoft Word hamegy daraye ghalate emlayee and, zire soale jeddi beravad. Angize avalie albate update kardan weblog boode ast ama alan ke dubare noron haye maghzam ba yekdigar etesali peyda kardand va morghe khial be samte na koja abad haye hamishegiash bal goshod. Be in fekr oftadam ke chera bayad oghate khatere web gardan ra ba teori noor afshani setaregan dar shabe Tehran va ya tosife vaziate yek shovalie baz neshaste, vakoneshe eteraz amize yek ipod an ham az noe MINI va jaye khalie fabiana ke oo ham ba hezar dalile vazeh va mobham az inja rafte ast, biazaram. Taze fabiana ham inja nist ke az khod defa konad. Rasti oo kojast
sa@ 13, inja Sao Paolo ast. Be jaye sedaye ma music mishenavid
Magasi shooreshi ba eradeyee vasf napazir hozore khod ra harekate namayeshi be fazaye monzabet, tamiz va ba class sherkat tahmil mikonad. Agar emkanash vojod dasht hatman mosahebe am ra ba oo ba in soal aghaz mikardam ke angize shoma az ghalabe bar hameye mavane va sakhti ha baraye vared shodan be in mohite tamiz va faghede hargoone ghaza az har no’ che mitavanad bashad? Javabe magas mohem nist chon hichvaght emkane chenin mosabe’eyee faraham nakhahad shod. Na be in dalil ke magas sharayete sohbat va goftegoye mostaghim ra ba man peyda nakhahad kard balke tanha be in dalil ke lahzetai pish dar barkhord faje’e bari ba shishe panjere tabaghe 29 om sherkat ke ta hade liside shodan tamiz shode bood az vez vez kardan dast bardasht va ehtemalan jan bakht. Hhhhhhheif ke forsate en’ekase tafakorate magas pish nayamad. Dokmeye HHHHHHHHH rooye keyboardam baz gir karde ast. Tazakor haye man be mas’oole computer sherkat hamchenan morede bi tavajohi gharar migirad. Soe modiriate modir bakhshe ma tanha dalile in sahl engari hast. Sare tasash az poshte sandali 100$ ash peydast. Harekatash dar jahate amoodi ke ba tanavobe yeksani tekrar mishavad in hads ra baz ham taghviat mikonad ke darad bar digar film Porno negah mikonad. Khodara shokr be dore oo va computer gonahkarash divari shisheyee keshide and. Agar Pope midanest amsale oo modire yek sherkat bozorg and hichvaght be brazil nemiamad!
Vaghty modire yek bakhsh betore amodi navasan mikonad che ma’ni darad ke karmandan be hesab rasi bepardazand ya omore edari sherkat ra saman dahand. Ya bayad mese carlos be sandali lam daham va ice tea benosham ya mese sandi ba bf am chat konam va angoshtanam ra modate madidi rooye do dokmeye : va shif + * feshar daham. Ama man na az ice tea khosham mi ayad va na. Khob mitavanam avazash ba edvardo chat konam. Mese hamishe online ast. Modathast kar hayash ra be khane mibarad. Be lebase zir va limonade rooye miz otaghash hasoodiam mishavad. Nooshidan an limonad va didane chehreye khit shode edvardo tanha va bozorgtarin arezooye emroozam ast. Email sina ham chand roozi hast ke gooshe mailboxam mande. Mitavanam mohtaviatash ra hads bezanam. Axe police hayee ke kargaran ra mizanand, ya zanani ke donbale ham mikonand va ya daneshjooyani ke sare ham arbade mikeshand. In dafe albate khabari az police, kargaran,zanan va daneshjooyan arbade kesh nist. Nemidanestam shotor ha ham dar an sarzamin moshkel darand
Baraye lahezati harekate amoodi modir, mozakhrafate zendegie edvardo, livane vajhgoon shodeye carlos, :* haye rado badal shode mian sandi va bf ash va sedaye nabehanjare motore mashinam ra ba shotor savari dar keshvare mesr avaz mikonam. Rasti sina cheghadr safar miravad. Oo aknoon kojast
5.18.2007
یکی بود، یکی نبود، یه سینایی بود
har az chand gahi mazboohane taghala mikonam ke daste yekio begiram bekesham biaram to donyam. mishinam takhayol mikonam. takhayole boodan. takhayol zistan. takhayole roozmaregy vaghty hozori digaro kenaram ehsas mikonam. takhayole poochi. alan hameye un chizi ke az zehne ashoob zade biroon miad se noghtast ... va bazam ... va ...
poochi tavahom va hameye vaje haye zesht o kasif. rooz ha khoobe. energy, kar, fa'aliat, jah talabia haye hamishegy... ama shab ke mishe zire bare sokot mishnavam sedaye kohne shodane jesmamo. shaba badan. inghad khastam ke dige hosele gashtan donbale mekanisme farar az in vaziato nadaram. taslim shodam. angizeyee nadaram baraye harekat. hezaran dalile aghlani mitunam biaram. be khobi mitunam anazliz konam vaziate boghranje alanamo. ama ... nemikonam. khala' zehnam mano bedarone khodesh keshide. dasto pamo takon nemidam va bi harekat dar khala shenavaram. entezaram nemikesham. entezare nejat dahande. aghrabe haye sa@ e zendegim inghad dar in entezar sanie haro rad kardan ke az kar oftadan. lahezat zendegim dar in lahze nesbat be hich etefaghi tarif nemishan. lahezati ke ta abad kesh dade shodan. in jafangiat to kalam mese makhloot kon dar hale makhlootidan charkh mikhoran va charkh mikhoran. dige majali nemimone baraye ye fenjoon chayee o ye zare fekr aghelane. taze inam age bashe, koo ye adam paye. in akhari hamoon nejat dahande mitune bashe. saket ye gooshe vaysade be harekate na monazame afkar dar makhloot kone zehnam negah mikone.
5.15.2007
an ugly mind in a beautiful desert





5.13.2007
5.12.2007
5.04.2007
MADNESS

Down to every moment of mine
Her image forms in my mind
I taste pain in every breath I take
So long and dark are the shadows
Walking behind every step I take
Ruining every scene of my life
I dance in joy to these walls
Counting down moments of my life
They belong to someone other than mine
Far beyond all distances in the world
Ignoring all these meaningless scales
Her existence is defined in my mind
I feel her sitting here by my side
Sina
may 03 , 07
Stop Running
Weakness in every muscle of mine
Exhaustion is every cell of my brain
All hopes, struggles been in vein
Too tired to begin dreaming again
I wanna be a frozen image
In this world running so fast
Like that picture hung on the wall
Or that music collapsed in the memories
For centuries
I don’t wanna forget
I don’t wanna be forgotten
In the pages turned by time
5.03.2007
هنرها هم گرفتار شد
(sharmande man type farsim faje ast! azinja be ba'desh be fingilish!)
ama gooya damane tote'e va siah bazie niroo haye ... be honar haye ziba ham keshide shode! digar az honar haye ziba mazloom tar jayee dasteshan nayamad ta berizan va mohite arame daneshkade ra moteshanej konand! honarhaye ziba ke tahala aram tarin daneshkade daneshgah tehran dar 70 sal akhir bode! na tazahorati, na tajamoyee, na ... fa'alin siasi sh ro ham ke az bikh aghim karde and ke hata jorat nemikonand dar khafa bahse siasi konanad!
(ehtemalan tahdideshan karde and ke agar ye bar digar bahse siasi konand, shajare nameshan ra kolan DELETE mikonand az bikh!)
basijian gerami dar hamahangi va sazmandehi bi sabegheiii in rooz ha az police 110 zoodtar be mahale dargiri va monaze'at miresand, va pas az moshakhas shodan mahale hamle otobos otobos ye mahale mazboor yooresh avarde va niroo haye nakhodi ( bedone rish o pashm) ra zarbe fanni mikonanad va ta bimarestani shodan taraf rezayat nemidahand. 8 sobh nashriye anjoman eslami ro ja'l kardand, 10 sobh lashgare baradaran va khaharan basiji daneshgahe poli technic ro mohasere mikone, va yegane mehrvarzi, jelo cheshme entezamat damar az roozegare anjoman eslamia dar miare.
raje be in mozo e jadid honar haye ziba ham. aslan didan daneshjooyan chador chaghchool to honar haye ziba jaye ta'ajob dare. 99.99999% ina ba 1000 joor sahmie haye ajib gharib va enteghali mian to honar ha faghat baraye inke class haro control konan va havaseshoon bashe in honarmandane ziba sooti haye siasi o farhangi nadan! faghat khoshbakhtane saro kalashoon to departman mosighi va ta'atr peyda nemishe onam chon in departman ha kolan az bikh haram hastan dar eslame nabe mohamadiiii!
inke ye ostade az donya bikhabari ye hamchin sooti mide to class va tarafam basijie 6 atishe az ab dar miad che rabti dare be jaryan haye sazmandehi shode o bar andazi narmo mozakhrafate dige!!! shayadam oon ostade az amrica o isreal o UK o jahaye dige pool grefte boode ke ye tare mooye dokhtararo bekeshe!!!
agha! be goh keshidan mamlekato... boosh donyaro vardasht!
zanaro zadan! badam chador taneshoon kardan!
moalemaro zendani kardan
daneshjoo haro lato par frestadan bimarestan ke setare dar beshan!
ba batom mehrvarzi kardan kargararo
tange bolaghio ghargh kardan va 30 ta hotel mikhan besazan to jebhe ha!
be khoda ba ye gale goosfandam inuri raftar koni shaki mishe!
link ISNA: http://www.isna.ir/Main/NewsView.aspx?ID=News-916603&Lang=P
4.28.2007
Saturday April 28 2007 11:27 PM
unlike other dreams, other feelings, other illusions, she hasnt vaporised in the heat of my daily rationality. since she came, I knew she is here to stay. I want it this way. I have surrendered all the logics I had to this passion. I dont care about the prices I have to pay. she is priceless. I don't know how far we will walk today. she is endless. Have you ever exprienced the moments attached to eternity?
I see her everywhere. I smell her all the time. she is there when I work, when I eat, when I sleep. It is all time invasion. the sweetest invader. I deeply feel the pleasure of surrendering myself to an illusion. is she real? was she real? will she be real? you may ask.
tell me if I am mad. I feel being few steps away. I dont see any end. the road is streched to horizon for me. very clear.
I always wanted to choose the kind of life I desire. my kind. not the one imposed on me. what do you suggest? is she honest with me?
مجله معماری و شهرسازی_ شماره 85_زمستان 1385_ تهران 2050

اينترنت هرگونه محدويت مربوط به مكان را از ميان برداشته است، اين كه صميميترين دوستان شما دركشورهايي دور زندگي كنند وهرشب با شما از طريق اينترنت درتماس باشند امري عادي و معمول است.
علاوه بر ازميان برداشته شدن محدوديتها، ساختار مكان نيز ازحالت فيزيكي و مادي بصورت مجازي درخواهد آمد، واژگاني چون " سایت، آدرس و چت روم"، با اينكه ريشه در جهان واقعي دارند. اما در واقع نام آنها تنها چيزي است كه از دنياي واقعي باقي مانده است و هرآنچه را كه در سایت ها و چت روم ها ميبينیم تماماً مجازي است. تصور و ادراك ذهني انسان نيز از مكان بطور كامل دگرگون خواهد شد. سایت در اينترنت فضايي مجازي است كه بجاي واحد متر مربع با گيگا بايت اندازه گيري مي شود! ديگر تصور فيزيكي اين واژگان معناي خود را از دست دادهاند.
هویت امروز من با صفحات وبلاگم تعریف می شود، آدرس من همان ایمیل ام است. مجموعه فایلهایم در هارد دیسک نوت بوک شخصیم حافظه تاریخی ام را بوجود می آورد
فعاليتهاي تجاري، فروشگاههاي زنجيرهاي ، آموزش وپروش و تحصيلات عالي، از نوع آنلاین ، گونهاي نوين از زندگي روزمره را براي انسان قرن بيست و يكم تعريف ميكند.
مغازههاي مجازي درتمام ساعات شبانه روز محصولات و كالاهاي خود را به مشتريان آنلاین ارائه مي كنند. دولت مجازي و ادارات بطور شبانه روزی دراينترنت به مراجعه كنندگان خدمات ارائه ميدهند.هم اكنون بزرگترين فروشگاههاي مجازي جهان تنها از انبارهاي عظيمي تشكيل شدهاند كه مملو از ميليونها كالا هستند. فرآيند ديدن كالا، سفارش، خريد وپرداخت، كاملاً دراينترنت انجام ميشود. اين فروشگاهها از طريق يك پايگاه مركزي وبا استفاده از شبكه جهاني اينترنت، تمامي دنيا را تحت نفوذ خود قراردادهاند. تقريباً هيچ يك از شغلهاي موجود در شهرهاي امروزي از نفوذ و امكانات مجازي اينترنت در امان نماندهاند. حتي شركتهاي خدماتي سفارش سرويس خود را بصورت آنلاین دريافت مي كنند. مفهوم كار بطور بنيادين درحال دگرگوني است. درصورتي كه زندگي آنلاین در آينده جايگزين زندگي سنتي شود، تصور اينكه مكانهايي چون مغازه، بازار، پاساژ، بانك وكتابخانه ديگر در شهرها ديده نشوند دور از ذهن نخواهد بود.
درلحظه اتصال به اينترنت قيود زمان و مكان بيمعنا می شوند. امروز وقتي زمان و مكان معنای فضایي گذشته را از دست دادهاند، چگونه است كه خانه، اداره، مدرسه، ميدان وپارك و خيابان بايد همچنان با معناي سنتيشان تعريف شوند؟!
4.24.2007
4.15.2007
26
it was raining. tehran's weather never been this nice, they said this on TV. she also told that straight to me.
we walked down the path i used to walk lonely everyday. everything was different while i was with her.
just, sometimes the tears came, when i realized i am fighting all the distances in the world.
free of matter of time, free of matter of place, we walked hand in hand through eternity.
just the tears came when some one asked me an address and brought me back to reality...
4.11.2007
Far far away
I dream her smile
Pouring joy on my face
And her hands
Calming down my body
I dream reality
Louder and louder
I hear them laughing at me
I’m that pissed off clown
In this circus of life
Changing his destiny
Against all the reasons
Shaping the logic
Of your rational mind
Formed within feeling less digits
There is the revolution
Of feelings in my modern world
Attached to brain malfunction
I stare at all the solid laws
I built my life upon
Melting into the air
I wish I could melt also
So that wind could take me
To that far far away…
Sina Mesdaghi
March 31, 2007
a poem
Last night
I saw her
In my dream
She came to me
She held me tight
Whispered in my ear
I clearly heard that
She loves me
Last night
I dreamed her
It was so real
She was so happy
I could feel
The sweetness of her hands
Warming mine
Promising loyalty
Last night
I saw her by the bars
Brought me the key
Whispered in the wind
I am at last free
I followed her smiles
She faked for me
In that garden of joy
Every moment was linked
To eternity
Last night
Never put my head down to rest
Never dreamed of her
I must confess
Last night
I wept in the memory of her
In the absence of stars
Moon was my only beholder
Sina Mesdaghi
April 1, 2007
3.30.2007
Disconnected
everything which is solid, melts into the air!































